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IT IS SOO MUCH BETTER THAN HONEY STARS
Friday, October 20, 2006i've been thinking about how this year has passed really quickly and how i've gone through so much.especially these past few weeks. i just wanna say a big thanks to those who have been there for me while i was all emo through the exams.meg,soph,grace,chelle,nic.kelly,xt,aud and whoever else.i'm sorry if i missed out your name.but yeah thanks alot you guys for encouraging me and helping me pick myself after the manymany hours of crying. but i guess the person i wanna thank most has to be GOD.i know i'm not a very godly person.but i just wanna say that i know i haven't been going to church much and stuff.but every single night i pray.i pray about everything in the world.God's like my best friend.He knows everything.seriously.i just really wanna thank Him for helping me pick myself up whenever i fall.my life's been shit these past few weeks.i really don't know what i would've done without my friends.they mean the world to me i swear.thank you God for being right beside me whenever i was down.thank YOU for always always listening to my complaints and troubles and worries.you've NEVER rejected me.you've even worked some miracles in my life these few weeks which just makes me believe in YOU even more.my faith's never really been that strong.i've always been waiting for a sign that you're real.especially real in MY life.and as i was thinking about my life this year and past few weeks,i've realised that you've helped me SO much.even when i didn't ask.even when i was just ignorant to how much you wanted to love me.i wanted to be loved so much by others,i somehow neglected your love for me.you're the only one i know for sure that will never break my heart. my heart's been broken over and over again for no reason.just cause i was stupid and naive to think that anything would ever begin.i've loved for so long and i've loved with all my heart that i failed to see how much YOU love me and how much you wanted to be there for me all this time.you're the one who was with me 24/7 throughtout my best and my worst times.you were walking beside me the whole time.i just know it somehow.but somehow i only turn to you when i'm in trouble,when i'm in need.i just really want to get to know you better but i'm not doing anything about it.i broke down almost everyday for the past few weeks but always had to put on a fake smile the next day.and only you knew how i felt.i don't know why i even bothered loving so much cause i have so many friends that care and so many friends that love me.and i really wanna thank you all for that cause you guys have been there for me too and slapping me in the face so many times telling me how shit i was cause i loved someone who'll never love me.i was wondering why i even bothered waiting when i knew that nothing was ever going to happen.there's nothing more to say.
